dreams remain.....

i look into my eyes....
some shy thoughts waiting
for an outburst
but will
remain burried
melting and freezing inside

i see...
my hands shake
my heartache ....
as with
great precision
i repair
the damage
as life emerges
announcing
its magnanimity with
horrid ...nightmarish ......pain

growing crazier than ever
denying the feeling..
the senses
i hold a hand placid outside
panicking inside
trying to console.....
pretending to be the anchor
miserably drifting away
in the middle of nowhere

i look at people
their eyes....
some expect the world
some my worth deny
but unperturbed by any other gaze
i look into my eyes
growing mysterious every moment
(are they keen?.... mocking?...observing?
casual?....dissapointed.?..enthusiastic?.
deep?....shallow?funny....or grave? )
i try again after giving up
every time.....

but.......sometimes
i do see
the glimpse of that
dream........ that has been
there and would never
leave my eyes!!

nothing specific

almost an year ........ no creative bursts yeah none ...well some landed in paper some dissolved without a trace......thousands of events took place and yes life changed forever :)