dreams remain.....

i look into my eyes....
some shy thoughts waiting
for an outburst
but will
remain burried
melting and freezing inside

i see...
my hands shake
my heartache ....
as with
great precision
i repair
the damage
as life emerges
announcing
its magnanimity with
horrid ...nightmarish ......pain

growing crazier than ever
denying the feeling..
the senses
i hold a hand placid outside
panicking inside
trying to console.....
pretending to be the anchor
miserably drifting away
in the middle of nowhere

i look at people
their eyes....
some expect the world
some my worth deny
but unperturbed by any other gaze
i look into my eyes
growing mysterious every moment
(are they keen?.... mocking?...observing?
casual?....dissapointed.?..enthusiastic?.
deep?....shallow?funny....or grave? )
i try again after giving up
every time.....

but.......sometimes
i do see
the glimpse of that
dream........ that has been
there and would never
leave my eyes!!